WY I RUN... Real situation with real consequences
10/24: 6 Miles, 4 Miles, Pilates
10/25: Easy Swim with Casey, 2 w/u, 2 x3 Miles @7:15, 2 c/d, Walk
10/26: 6 Miles, 4 Miles, Pilates
10/27: 12 Miles, Easy Swim
10/28: Mountain Bike, Pilates, Easy Swim
10/29: 8 Miles with 4 x 20 and Easy Swim, Pilates
10/30: Easy Cycle, 2 w/u, 3 @ 7:15, 2 c/d, Walk
Just some good 'ole tapering time mixed with some relaxing swims
Halloween of course. I pulled myself out of the apartment to get in a little celebration (Halloween/Birthday)
Lance showed off his EPO evidence and I slapped on some kitty cat ears
This may be some word splatter, but I have had a lot on my mind with this marathon approaching.
First, it was my birthday and this gal always gets emotional on her birthday. Either the day before, the day, or after... there is bound to be a melt down and there was. Combined with the NYCM on the horizon, the tears flowed.
As I read tweets, Facebook and other social media outlets, runners are getting excited. They are making it known with comments like, " 6 Dayyyssssss!!! I can't wait." In my head, I want that enthusiasm and all I can think is, I CAN WAIT. As soon as I am faced with an unknown/ fear, I get scared... very scared and want to set my expectations very low. The fear of failure is overwhelming and while I was told this weekend, "this is the dessert of my training," it doesn't feel like it. In the midst of my tantrum, I told Adam, I don't want to run, I don't to go. In my head, I am so much safer sticking around Lander, and not testing my training where there is a possibility of failure. Adam told me, 'you don't have to go, no one is making you.' As he spoke these words, I was furious, but he was right and this is a risk I wanted to take. We all know, failing is relative. While, I want to set goals, I don't want them to be unattainable but at the same time want to push myself; what I trained to do. This is why after five marathons, while I still do have some idea of time goals and freak out every time I see my P.O.A. from Jeff, my goal is proper execution. Because this my friends is what the marathon is all about. It is the hardest concept looking at the slower times for the first 2/3 of the Marathon, knowing, it all comes down to the last 10k and I don't have any minutes banked for a buffer. But if executed well, the slower time will only enhance my finishing kick while banking time ( as told a million times before) could cost me more minutes with acid build up and glycogen depletion in the end. So my friends, EXECUTION is where it's at for the NYCM and while I am not sure how I will handle the looming time goal in my mind, I will try to tame it while embracing my dessert and hopefully putting the cherry on top~